I sent a ~networking~ email to an intimidating person my friend referred me to today. Ngl, it took me a full hour to draft the email and then I just sat and stared at it for several minutes. And finally, when I had to press the send button before I completely chickened out, I had to close my eyes as I did it. But I did it. I did it!!!!
Honestly, I’ve never understood networking and I probably never will. I’m generally very introverted and shy and reserved and anxious and a bunch of other descriptors that are not very helpful in any sort of social situation. Plus, I frequently doubt my own abilities and aspirations, which makes job searching and applying a personal hell. Tbh, I’m pretty sure that if I just, sort of, loosened up, I’d probably save myself a giant load of anxiety and stress. Especially in reaching out to people. Or even just any communication with people I admire/am intimidated by. But wow, self-consciousness just gets me every time. I just cannot ignore that little voice in my head that whispers ridiculous things like “they think you’re completely incompetent” or “you suck and soon everyone will know it.” And then I end up really wanting to just run away and ignore everything, even if it’s important. I still need to level up a lot more to win.
Then again, I did have a small adulting win today! Even if the person doesn’t reply or thinks I’m some random ignorant creeper, at least I sent the email. I’m satisfied. Now back to the grind.
If you have any advice or want to commiserate, feel free to leave a comment~
Cheers (╯; ﹏ ;╰)